I came across this quote recently and it resonated with me. I felt so blessed that it did! Now that this rings true for me, I see how in the past I had no eyes to see these words. “I Found God in Myself and I loved her…I loved her fiercely.” This quote would have meant nothing to me and I would not have even noticed it. Loving myself was not even in my vocabulary before I got sober and transformed my life.
I now know that my relationship with myself is the most important one I will ever have. I used to think I needed to find a man and get into a relationship in order to be happy. All those relationships just made me more unhappy. Then I would drink and use drugs to self-medicate my misery or to mask the pain and pretend I was having “fun”. I would stay in those bad relationships endlessly because I felt so worthless and afraid to be alone. I never found what I was seeking because I was always looking outside myself for something to, “make me happy”.
After getting sober I began working on healing myself and my life. I discovered yoga and meditation and began practicing several times a week. Yoga teaches the 8 limbed path to enlightenment, beginning with the Yamas & Niyamas which are ethical ways of living and being in the world. These practices began to change things in me. I began to feel better in so many ways. I began to like myself more and my body and mind began to heal.
The practices helped me connect to a deeper meaning in life. I began to see myself as a spiritual being having a human experience. The more I practiced and looked within my own heart, the more I felt the power of my Soul. As my mind and body changed, I felt a deeper connection to the Earth and to all beings. My love for myself and for life grew and grew until I felt a happiness that I never thought possible.
I sincerely hope that all of you who are struggling with similar issues will give this path a try. Do some research about what yoga is. There is a movie called “Yoga Is” that you can stream on Amazon that explains a lot. I know many people who have transformed their lives through this practice. I also went to rehab and sober living, which helped, but the transformation came through yoga and meditation. I wish you all a future being, “happy, joyous, and free”!